My New Goals

Every year around this time, everyone starts with there New Years Resolutions. I hate them. Inevitably you start with weight loss, stop smoking, or drinking. Blah, blah, blah!!!! Yea, it lasts for about a month when withdrawals really kick in and wipe the floor with you and you quit and go back to what was comfortable. That's why I don't believe in New Years Resolutions!!! However I have learned in the past that I can overcome anything I've ever put my mind to. I've also not completed buttloads of things I've started. However, a person really never changes until they are ready!

For many of you, you know my story and have heard me moaning and groaning about my back. How it hurts, and how I can't do anything! The reality is, that excuse is getting old. I am miserable. I have tried to get other people involved to help motivate me, but no one will nor do I think they can. What has motivated me lately is the tv shoe "Biggest Loser". I know, I know, it sounds cliche, but these obese, hunk of lard people stand in front of America showing us all of the disgusting things their bodies have to offer. They cry, and complain, but they do it!!! They do it with more health issues than most of us have ever thought of. Heck, most of them have worse back problems than me, worse knees then me, and wayyyyy more weight then me. With that said I give them huge Kudos!!!! And take that inspiration and tell myself that regardless of the Back problems that I have, I can overcome it, and be the person I used to love. You know, that one who had lots of Drive & self determination. The one that no matter how bad I felt, I pushed the envelope, and never complained. Hell, I felt great back then. I miss it. Not "oh i wish I felt like that again", I mean I am depressed that I am not that person anymore. It's killing me inside that I am not that person anymore, and I'm done giving excuses. I'm done waiting for someone else to do it with me, and I'm done lying to myself that I can't do it!!!

This year my goal is to complete a Sprint and an Olympic triathelon. Sprint is 1/2 mile swim, 12 1/2 mile Bike ride, & a 3 mile run. The Olympic is a 1+ mile swim, 25 mile Bike ride, & a 6+ mile run. I know the running is my weak point, and will be the one that gives me the most problems with my back, but I really want to prove to myself that I can overcome it, and begin to feel better about myself. I know you think I may sound crazy for doing this, but I would hope you would lend me your support and wish me luck. If you want to go run,bike, or swim with me, let me know, I would love to have your company while on this journey!!!!